Hotel Books - Hollow Light, Hollow Lover

I would rather live in pain than live in vain and in this way I
Don't know if anything will change
But at least I know who I am in this game that we play

Even though sometimes I don't know
If it's even worth trying to get things to stay
But I've spent so long trying to let go
That I just want a change of pace
Because I used to chase after home
But now I'm afraid of that place
Because every time I stay
I become static and I become afraid

Because sometimes I feel like I'm standing alone
But sometimes I feel like only the low road will lead me home
But I will do whatever it takes to stay away from being another drone
Because the further away I chase my demons away
I feel like it's the chase that brings them so close

And today is today and that's all that will be remembered when life comes back
And breathes into my bones in this cycles of living where I feel like all I love is all I lack
And all I have is not my own, so I just continue to let go
And this mirror reminds of the worth
I kept hidden in alleyways on cold days and nights
Of trying to feel alive, trying to pretend that nothing happens
When no one turns on the light and I know that's not true
But I will believe it when I close my eyes
Because it's easier than trying to make things right

And I feel that the dark is inside of me shaking
My knees trying to release this weight that needs to be set free
So release me, break my back and let me bleed
I don't want to lose myself but it would be okay if I lost part of me
Because we all just want to be set free

Set me free and watch me bleed (I don't want to lose myself, but it would be okay if I lost part of me) watch me bleed, I've been holding in this breathe for far too long and it isn't freedom until it is released (so please release me) so set me free and watch me bleed because I don't want to lose myself, so set me free and watch me bleed because I don't want to lose myself

I know what I want; we all fight for what we want
Even though it's not always what we need
And we're all in this together; we all share the some blood
It's just that some of us are afraid to bleed
So the dark leaps out from us and into our streets
We get so isolated from it becomes a part of all that we can see

And even when we fall asleep
We can feel these nightmares infecting our dreams
But when life comes into the darkness
The darkness can't understand what it seems
And I would like to think that the more I grow with you
It's the more the darkness can't understand me
I'd like to think that as I grow the darkness can't even see me