Hotel Books - Nicole

I think I’m losing you, but I will never regret choosing you
Because I am in love, and for now that will be enough
And the ones around me convince me
That I was the only person who was dumb enough to believe that you and I had hope
But now I know
Even after you began to let your emotions slow
The only reason I stood alone
Was because I was the only one who knew our love was never going to let go

Everyone wanted me to see that we could no thrive, so gouge out my eyes
Because if this is reality then I guess I’m not alive
Because I don’t know a life in where I can’t make things right
And when life teaches you to drive and you finally say goodbye
And you won’t let me stand by your side
I'll know that though some feelings are hurt, none will have died
Cause I used to stay up at night and picture myself looking into your eyes
Shouting as you would sigh
How dare you think you can fall asleep
With water dripping from the kitchen sink?
How dare you think you can fall asleep
With all these little leaks in this home we built in our dreams?

A picture is worth a thousand words or whatever people say to me
It’s hard to believe when your mind is lost and in need
And all you can picture is a memory inside of someone else’s sheets
A prayer that nothing will keep
A hope that light will seek before the dark sinks too deep
Or at least the sinking feeling inside of me will decrease
When the release of perceived dreams burn in the flame of feeling free
So feel free to be free if that’s what you need

And if someday you feel alone and everything caves in when you try to breathe
Know that you are not alone as far as I can see
Because you were everything to me
Through this I have realized that if I were God we would have all just died
Because darling you were mine and now I feel so dead inside
And what good am I if all I can create is a projection of my own mind
A dream of finding time to remind you that I’m still here and I’m not fine
And darling if you’re going to leave just remember who you are
And do what you can to remember me

Maybe someday we can talk about our past and we can talk about the weather
Whenever you leave I don’t care what I’m remembered for
I just want to be remembered
Because even if I failed you at least I tried
And maybe our lives don’t add up now
But someday our graves will look the same when we both die
And if I had a chance I’d give you one last kiss and I’d bite down on your lip
And I’d try to puncture it so you’ll never forget that time
But you’ll always regret
And darling I know sometimes life will take a turn for the worst
And sometimes life will even hurt
And I know some days, some days you’ll be afraid of the lessons you’ll have to learn
And some days you’ll even feel burned
And I want to let you know that I want to love you through them

But I always get what I deserve